Friday, May 25, 2007 ; 8:37 PM
fcuk.
hais.
ii rly dont knw whts into you.
or even ,
me.
its lyk duh laa.
one minute ue were there toking w me.
in the other minute lyk somethngg came into ue ,
ndd went shouting at me ,
for ii dont knw aht reason.
wahlaos.
pls laa ,
think about how ii will feel also can.
its not tht ii want it this way also.
but ,
everytime ue just get flared up easily.
ii rly dont knw wht t do.
im not good at speaking good words.
ii rly dont.
the thngg i do (t ue ) ,
only make ue angry.
hais.
ii dont want it t be lyk this okays.
why cnt we be lyk others ?
so close ndd so happy ?
hais.
ue saw my report book.
no ,
is ue go peeked at it.
ii didnt said anythng.
ue didnt too.
ii wonder-ed why.
hais.
all ue whld say is tht why ue fail this or that ?
thn ii will hlp myself ndd say but thn got other ppl mre lauya thn me wht.
thn ue whld say ,
dont compare w others.
but ,
why ue always compare me w others ?
ndd esp THOSE CLEVER PEOPLE ?
ndd ii said ii tot dont compare w others.
thn ue whld just give me a look ndd keep scolding me off.
wth.
at least must give me reason tht why ue scold me ryte.
okays.
ii admit.
ii did badly.
but ii did improved okays.
in fact ,
its alot alr.
ndd why ue always must look at the bad points of mine ,
instead of the good points ?
ndd never encourage me once.
maybe when ii was young.
but not nowadays.
cos ii cnt rmb-ed anythng.
ue always just give me a face.
lyk JUST SHUTUP.
wth.
hais.
forget it.
pls ,
dont everytime just say ,
ii dont even care if ue care i am ur mother.
it hurts me alot okays.
rly.
spare a thought for me cans ?
listen-ed t a song called WO MEN BU KU.
dont knw why ,
ii just cried out just lyk this.
hais.
ii shldnt be crying.
for godness sake.
ndd why ii shld cry ?
its not my fault at all right.
hais.
but ,
ii just cnt control.
ii wanted t hold back the tears ,
but ii failed.
ndd it dropped just lyk this.
ndd where were ue when ii need ue ?
hais.
hais.
ii rly dont knw whts into you.
or even ,
me.
its lyk duh laa.
one minute ue were there toking w me.
in the other minute lyk somethngg came into ue ,
ndd went shouting at me ,
for ii dont knw aht reason.
wahlaos.
pls laa ,
think about how ii will feel also can.
its not tht ii want it this way also.
but ,
everytime ue just get flared up easily.
ii rly dont knw wht t do.
im not good at speaking good words.
ii rly dont.
the thngg i do (t ue ) ,
only make ue angry.
hais.
ii dont want it t be lyk this okays.
why cnt we be lyk others ?
so close ndd so happy ?
hais.
ue saw my report book.
no ,
is ue go peeked at it.
ii didnt said anythng.
ue didnt too.
ii wonder-ed why.
hais.
all ue whld say is tht why ue fail this or that ?
thn ii will hlp myself ndd say but thn got other ppl mre lauya thn me wht.
thn ue whld say ,
dont compare w others.
but ,
why ue always compare me w others ?
ndd esp THOSE CLEVER PEOPLE ?
ndd ii said ii tot dont compare w others.
thn ue whld just give me a look ndd keep scolding me off.
wth.
at least must give me reason tht why ue scold me ryte.
okays.
ii admit.
ii did badly.
but ii did improved okays.
in fact ,
its alot alr.
ndd why ue always must look at the bad points of mine ,
instead of the good points ?
ndd never encourage me once.
maybe when ii was young.
but not nowadays.
cos ii cnt rmb-ed anythng.
ue always just give me a face.
lyk JUST SHUTUP.
wth.
hais.
forget it.
pls ,
dont everytime just say ,
ii dont even care if ue care i am ur mother.
it hurts me alot okays.
rly.
spare a thought for me cans ?
listen-ed t a song called WO MEN BU KU.
dont knw why ,
ii just cried out just lyk this.
hais.
ii shldnt be crying.
for godness sake.
ndd why ii shld cry ?
its not my fault at all right.
hais.
but ,
ii just cnt control.
ii wanted t hold back the tears ,
but ii failed.
ndd it dropped just lyk this.
ndd where were ue when ii need ue ?
hais.
date: 27June, 10.30pm.
mood: hen fan ahhhh!.
listening: You are not alone ; MJ
random: i dont wanna screw up my MST.