Wednesday, April 30, 2008 ; 7:07 PM
A boring post -.-
I felt so darn stressed up nowadays. I dont want to flunk my MYE. I dont want flunk any subjects again and again. It's so demoralizing lah. It's so saddening to see lots of underlined marks on your report books, so jealous to see your friends scored better and higher marks then you, so angry with yourself that you are so stupid and cant do well, so irritating when yours parents nag. It's just so.. Hais. Sometimes feelings just cant easily being expressed out by words, know. You know you want to do well, you think you can do well, you studied so hard for it, however, results doesnt show it. These few days studied after I rested awhile once I reached home and from 7plus to ard 11. Was so difficult to get to sleep as I was so afraid I would forget everything once I woke up. I kept studying and studying as I was so scared if I left out any notes or formulas. I just wanted to do well for this MYE, which seems so difficult. I felt like crying when studying and when about to sleep. I dont understand why I'm doing so hard for. For my future ? Whereby I dont want go University ? But O'lvl is so impt. It's so ironic, know. I dont want to let my future decides me, but rather I decide my own future. I wanted to cry out, but just cant cry.
This few days everyday exams, excepts for weekends. Yesterday and today's papers were horrible. Yesterday was Emaths P1 in the morning and POA P1 in the afternoon. I really dont understand why this school want to put two papers in one day lah. Want to kill our brain cells huh ? Thus on yesterday de yesterday I studied for only Emaths. Emaths P1 was rather easy to me, which I hope I could do well this time. Had a long lunch break, so after eating went to look for Ms Goh to clarify our doubts, then studied and practiced in class as of revision. But the paper was disasters lah ! It's the first time I think POA is so darn difficult lor. I studied de all got come out, but it's like all the phrasing made those questions so complicating, that I dont know how to apply my knowledge into it -.- I felt so stressed eh ! I felt so much of crying out lah. Studied so hard for it, but in the end... Wahlaos. I really dont understand why I studied so hard for, you know. As the hard work doesnt paid off at all.
Today was Geography in the morning and Amaths P1 in the afternoon. Yesterday night did lots of notes on Geography. Keep reading thru it so as to prevent of forgetting. But I dont understand the concepts ! So it's very easy for me to forget -.- Then reached school at ard 7.10am today, although it's flexi Wednesday. Studied and revised before Geography paper starts. Went to banded classroom, took the paper. Phew, at least for once I think my hard work finally paid off lah. But I did one question wrongly ! I think is I misread the question or what lah. Ask for dont know what variations of impacts(?) which is points like ; Obesity and Malnutrition. But I wrote points like Affordability and Assessibility. Hence, 7marks gone into the drain. Sigh. I think I wont do well for the paper. Maybe just border line marks lor. So, there goes my humanities :/
Amaths P1 in the afternoon. Was wthhhhhh. Okays, I didnt really studied for it. Only memorised those formulas. Somemore I picked to rmb some formulas only :X I memorised the Trigo identities and R-formula only. And wth, R-formula didnt came out at all ! Trigo identities doesnt do much help. And was discussing about the Circle formula during the long break. They keep repeating the formula, but I chose not to rmb as I thought it would come out at P2. Then it came out in P1 -.- Only one Trigo question, which is so saddening as I only understand Trigo -.- Came out alot of rubbish questions. And I only know how to do like 2questions ? The simultaneous and the drawing of straight line graph, which total up to 7marks. And the whole paper is upon 80marks. Wahlaos, darn pathetic cans. And I'm like finished it in like half an hour when it's given 2hrs ? Omg, I think I'm seriously very pathetic lor. Then I slacked the 1.5hrs away. Fan-ing myself as it's damn hot and look at people doing their work. Even those not so strong in Amaths right, I see them like writing so many solutions down and I felt so sad ! I dont understand why I can be so pathetic leh. I think I'm seriously very pathetic eh. And during the 1.5hrs I thought about my future and O'lvl. I wanted to give up on Amaths during O'lvl. But it's like, studied for 1year plus alr. Aiya, I dont know how to describe the feeling lah. Hais. I dont know what to say lah. I'm hopeless.
Friday Chemistry Paper. I want to do my very very very best for this paper. For at least a pass grade will do instead of F9s -.- Tmr's Labour Day. Which means work day. Which means I will work hard for my Chemistry D: Please, for at least once, encourage me to study further.
I felt so darn stressed up nowadays. I dont want to flunk my MYE. I dont want flunk any subjects again and again. It's so demoralizing lah. It's so saddening to see lots of underlined marks on your report books, so jealous to see your friends scored better and higher marks then you, so angry with yourself that you are so stupid and cant do well, so irritating when yours parents nag. It's just so.. Hais. Sometimes feelings just cant easily being expressed out by words, know. You know you want to do well, you think you can do well, you studied so hard for it, however, results doesnt show it. These few days studied after I rested awhile once I reached home and from 7plus to ard 11. Was so difficult to get to sleep as I was so afraid I would forget everything once I woke up. I kept studying and studying as I was so scared if I left out any notes or formulas. I just wanted to do well for this MYE, which seems so difficult. I felt like crying when studying and when about to sleep. I dont understand why I'm doing so hard for. For my future ? Whereby I dont want go University ? But O'lvl is so impt. It's so ironic, know. I dont want to let my future decides me, but rather I decide my own future. I wanted to cry out, but just cant cry.
This few days everyday exams, excepts for weekends. Yesterday and today's papers were horrible. Yesterday was Emaths P1 in the morning and POA P1 in the afternoon. I really dont understand why this school want to put two papers in one day lah. Want to kill our brain cells huh ? Thus on yesterday de yesterday I studied for only Emaths. Emaths P1 was rather easy to me, which I hope I could do well this time. Had a long lunch break, so after eating went to look for Ms Goh to clarify our doubts, then studied and practiced in class as of revision. But the paper was disasters lah ! It's the first time I think POA is so darn difficult lor. I studied de all got come out, but it's like all the phrasing made those questions so complicating, that I dont know how to apply my knowledge into it -.- I felt so stressed eh ! I felt so much of crying out lah. Studied so hard for it, but in the end... Wahlaos. I really dont understand why I studied so hard for, you know. As the hard work doesnt paid off at all.
Today was Geography in the morning and Amaths P1 in the afternoon. Yesterday night did lots of notes on Geography. Keep reading thru it so as to prevent of forgetting. But I dont understand the concepts ! So it's very easy for me to forget -.- Then reached school at ard 7.10am today, although it's flexi Wednesday. Studied and revised before Geography paper starts. Went to banded classroom, took the paper. Phew, at least for once I think my hard work finally paid off lah. But I did one question wrongly ! I think is I misread the question or what lah. Ask for dont know what variations of impacts(?) which is points like ; Obesity and Malnutrition. But I wrote points like Affordability and Assessibility. Hence, 7marks gone into the drain. Sigh. I think I wont do well for the paper. Maybe just border line marks lor. So, there goes my humanities :/
Amaths P1 in the afternoon. Was wthhhhhh. Okays, I didnt really studied for it. Only memorised those formulas. Somemore I picked to rmb some formulas only :X I memorised the Trigo identities and R-formula only. And wth, R-formula didnt came out at all ! Trigo identities doesnt do much help. And was discussing about the Circle formula during the long break. They keep repeating the formula, but I chose not to rmb as I thought it would come out at P2. Then it came out in P1 -.- Only one Trigo question, which is so saddening as I only understand Trigo -.- Came out alot of rubbish questions. And I only know how to do like 2questions ? The simultaneous and the drawing of straight line graph, which total up to 7marks. And the whole paper is upon 80marks. Wahlaos, darn pathetic cans. And I'm like finished it in like half an hour when it's given 2hrs ? Omg, I think I'm seriously very pathetic lor. Then I slacked the 1.5hrs away. Fan-ing myself as it's damn hot and look at people doing their work. Even those not so strong in Amaths right, I see them like writing so many solutions down and I felt so sad ! I dont understand why I can be so pathetic leh. I think I'm seriously very pathetic eh. And during the 1.5hrs I thought about my future and O'lvl. I wanted to give up on Amaths during O'lvl. But it's like, studied for 1year plus alr. Aiya, I dont know how to describe the feeling lah. Hais. I dont know what to say lah. I'm hopeless.
Friday Chemistry Paper. I want to do my very very very best for this paper. For at least a pass grade will do instead of F9s -.- Tmr's Labour Day. Which means work day. Which means I will work hard for my Chemistry D: Please, for at least once, encourage me to study further.
date: 27June, 10.30pm.
mood: hen fan ahhhh!.
listening: You are not alone ; MJ
random: i dont wanna screw up my MST.